FINALLY!!!
11/6/2019
November 6th.... SOOO I may have procrastinated a bit there... Procastination is like masturbation, in the end we are only fucking ourselves... even then, that isnt always such a bad thing LOL. Well I am officially back. New pics, the site is done.... and the next blog entry is here. I am sure that I will tweak this too, not the entry, but everything on the site. I wanted to get it done.
I kept putting this off last month as there was just no time last month. I was coming back from a slip. One night and I burned down everything that had taken over two years to build. Luckily that put everything in perspective. I belong in recovery. There is nothing left for me in the drinking world.
I picked up right where I left off.... I didnt beat myself up for quitting a job I loved, or for throwing away the sobriety I had, it wouldnt have done me any good. Instead, I saw it as an opportunity to learn, grow and evolve again. I utilized the time that freed up to build my recovery stronger this time, to use the time that became available to train harder for the next marathon and start focusing on healing all the hurt that had occured this year that ultimately led me to drink again in the first place.
And then it came... October 17th.. I was on a red eye for the next Marathon.
I had a group of AMAZINGLY strong women behind me cheering me on. I could see how loved and supported I was because of me being so transparent with my flaws and the ability to embrace them and make them part of my success story. Everything was coming together.
Getting uncomfortable with things I didnt want to normally do while on vacation helped me grow, it opened my heart to a different type of healing. My tears each day out there spoke for themselves. I forgave the heart break that I went through this year, realizing that if it wasnt for that, I would not have been forced to discover this side of me once again. Training pushes me to be the best version of me possible. For me, it is damn near impossible to run 42.2km in a shitty mindset.
I picked up the pieces of my broken heart, every shattered piece and loved my way through it...
And when the migraine struck at the 36th kilometer at the Marathon last month, I kept going, knowing that if I made it through all the obstacles this year, that this was nothing, and also, I did not fly over 3000km to give up again. NO. Keep Going, Keep Growing. If Alcoholism and Addiction didnt kill me, then this surely wouldnt, and if it was going to, atleast I would die doing something that I loved... Inspiring everyone to be the best version of themselves.
Not everyone wants to run a marathon, give up drinking/drugs (or change their lifestyle), but there is something within each and every one of us that we think is either too much, or we "could never do that" but would love to do.... and I hope that people know that anything is possible if we are willing to work for it, persevere and not give up. Nothing great happens overnight.
Well, I did not expect that to come out. And again, it will take a little bit of time before I get this whole blog thing into a rythmic format, but I do appreciate each and everyone of you who take the time to read, the ones who respect my journey and everyone in between.
Thanks again.
Kisses and Licks,
Sucks and Fucks.
Alexis S.
Oh and PS... I was asked in the past month by a few of my clients to let them know about the stats of the marathon... my FINISHING time was 6:14:32.. MY PERSONAL BEST :) It was actually my personal best for a 5km, 10km, Half Marathon and Full.... So you know.... Now I gotta keep going!!
And also, I am working on setting up a personal instagram that will be private and only given once we have shared some fun together!
Thanks for reading!!
