10/13/2025
Hey all of you lovely gentlemen!!
Well, yes, a long break was needed, and I really did think that I was going to be done for good. Heck, I even took a three-month celibacy kick (and not the “if you buy a bit, I will sell a bit” celibacy!) I went without sex for three months… It was a nice little break, but let me tell you all… I was climbing the walls by the end of it. I did learn much more about myself and it built a part of my spirituality that I hadn’t before. Getting on my knees to pray vs getting on my knees for pay was a big change over this summer. And I got more disciplined as a result.
I originally was “done” because even though I screen my clients before taking on a new client, I had a bad apple slip through my screening process… It was a terrible session. I won’t get into details, but it left me in a state that almost led me back to drinking. However, I ended up taking the time that I needed, I did not end up physically harmed and I have since decided that I simply will not take any new clients from now on as a result of that guy (men who treat working girls the way that guy did do not deserve to be called gentlemen) …
Having said that, I have also realized that over the course of my sobriety journey (I hit four years last month!!) that my service has changed too... I used to be all about lots of fun and intimacy as soon as we got together and almost the entire time… It was brought to my understanding recently, that this has changed as I became more mature. While I still enjoy a good time and everything that goes along with it… I too, enjoy the companionship and soothing intimacy, like cuddling after for a bit (in those longer sessions) It didn’t occur to me, that when I left for those five years, that I had changed.
Now, to clear something up that was brought to my attention. Most of you know, I do not get involved in drama, gossip and petty high school bullsh*t, but apparently there is a much older provider in this area going around spreading a nasty rumor about me. I won’t say who it is, as I do not believe in free advertising… but I was disgusted by this. Us women should be sticking together, not trying to tear one another down and apart. I heard a long time ago, that if someone is trying to take you down, it’s because they know they are already beneath you. And people speak ill of someone in hope that others won’t find them so appealing. It’s sad that the industry has gotten to this, but also makes me think that maybe this person sent that client to mistreat me to get me out of the industry??? Whatever the case, I am not here to take clients from anyone and if a person feels that threatened or inadequate around me, that speaks volumes of their business ethics and personal service. End of discussion.
Onto better things, where I have been and the updates on my life,
I have been enjoying my job back at the office, and in fact, I may consider upgrading my skills and go to be an actual accountant… I have increased my running and training, although now I see that skinny and fit aren’t nearly as important as strong and healthy. Its weird how things change as we evolve. I am headed out this week to go run another marathon. I am so excited. Living my dreams. I remember years ago, like when I first started cleaning up in 2017. It was my dream to “run and fuck my way across Canada” Now, I get to live my dreams daily, and the Universe keeps building on them. I never imagined I would be this message of hope and inspiration to others, but I get to speak to others about how you can recover from drug and alcohol addiction, and carry a message that it does not matter what type of life you come from, that if you so choose, you too can change your life and become whoever you are willing to work to become.
I have said it time and time again, I love this industry (adult entertainment). It took me in when I didn’t have a clue about life or how to even take care of myself. When life got hard, and I needed an escape—the people in this industry showed up for me. I have a love for the clients in my life who have treated me with kindness, love and respect… and that is why I keep my phone available for those guys... I love providing for them. It’s a brightness in my day when I can see them between my running, work schedule and other tasks. It makes me feel beautiful, important and honored that they still want to include me in their day and even more so, that I get to make them feel good and unwind by giving genuine service to them. All my clients who have seen me, know how much I love making sure I have a nice outfit for them and am fully present for them. With my recent break, I am a little gigglier than usual but am grateful that we still have the chance to connect.
Well, I am sure I could have written a novel today, but sadly, I still have some business reports to write, also, I have been thinking, what do you all think of a private Instagram or something that I could post personal pics on??? If given the link, or page, we could set up a cash app or something?? (would be to current clients and regulars only) I am not an only*ans girl, that is not for me, I tried it and have my p*rn history, and its just not something that I am interested in, but I could do mini blogs and do insta or something if anyone was interested, that is honestly more easy than doing blog entries on here….
Let me know, and until then.
Thank you all for following and reading, I enjoy this journey we get to enjoy together.
Kisses and licks,
JJ.
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