HAPPY 2025
1/3/2025
Happy New Year!! Hope that you all had a great holiday and a fabulous end to the year.
I appreciate your patience as I update this a little later than the promised “biweekly.” As mentioned, I do not like to write unless it is authentic and inspired, anything that is forced creates such an ingenuine connection and I feel that it is sensed by the reader. I also do not feel right publishing something that I know does not come from my heart… When I operate from my ego, it often gets me in trouble or I find myself resenting what comes from it.
Well, over the past few weeks, there was a shift in my life. I am no longer doing a bunch of shifts at GP, but rather taking appointments at my incall again in Coquitlam. There was an incident in my personal life that occurred, that made me not reliable for Pauline, and I won’t do that to her, or any employer for that matter. I am still there from time to time, but not 5 days a week or even weekly, just as she needs me kinda thing. So, if coming to Coquitlam is too far for you, check out the Great Pharoah Website for when Emma will be in next to catch me there. And yes, having said that, its funny how things work out, because now I am available weekdays during the day at my location in Coquitlam again. I don’t want to get into what happened, as it may disclose too much and for privacy reasons, but I will end this with that everything got sorted out by the end of December and it was actually a blessing in disguise that resulted in me taking care of certain things that I had been neglecting for years… so things that seem to be the worst thing at the moment, kind of have a way of being the best thing in the end…. We often have to adjust our attitude and persevere through the hard time with the best of our capabilities.
And having said that, during all of that, holiday stress was also in there… and this year, I decided to sit out the holidays. I love the holidays. The lights, sparkles, love and giving. It truly is about being present with our loved ones. And this year, I was feeling the weight of my past and the life that I survived before I even turned 19. Needless to say, I had a heavy ending to the year. There was so much going on, and so I doubled down on what I usually do to stay sober. What a lot of you that are just joining us here on my blog may not know, and those of you who have been here a while already know, is that my recovery will always come first… If I say I am busy with my girlfriends in the evening, or going to a “friends celebration” just know, that is usually my code for, “I am doing something pertaining to my sobriety that is helping me stay sober today.” And I am happy to announce that yet another year has gone by from beginning to end with no drugs or alcohol…
This is going into my fourth year of continuous sobriety. And I knew that heading into 2025 that this year was not going to be different unless I started taking different actions. So right before Christmas, I signed up for school, but not finance like I had been trying to get into, I was going to go into Mortgage, but I could not get things together, and I may still go into it eventually, as I love learning and expanding the mind. When it really came down to it, I started asking myself, “what do I really want?” and, “who do I want to become?” At the end of the day, since I changed my life back in 2017, I have wanted to be a speaker and a writer… basically like the female Tony Robbins… And when I get honest with myself, I have done everything BUT put the work behind becoming that. And so, three days before Christmas, I registered for an online course for Motivational Speakers. It is a six-week program and I am already finished a portion of it. Looking forward to what else is going to come from it. If even just learning things to enhance the public speaking that I already do, then that’s pretty cool.
Now, my Mexican Vacation is coming up quickly!!! Its already under three weeks away!! At this point, I am nervous more than excited, mostly because one of my kitties is starting to get sick, and that makes me a little apprehensive about leaving, I do have a wonderful cat and house sitter, so I shouldn’t worry, I just don’t want anything to happen to one of my kitties when I am in another Country. But my travel buddy who comes with me everywhere, has been keeping my spirits up, and reminding me of everything that we will be doing when we get there. I am going for the purpose of sobriety… last time we went it was so magical, that I couldn’t even believe that I was somewhere so beautiful, Puerto Vallarta January 2024 was my first tropical vacation. And this year will be my second one. I was laughing that it would be cool that if there were any clients who read my blog that want to see me while I am down there from January 23rd – 27th, that they should reach out to me via email and we can have some fun while down there, I don’t know why I have this strong desire to fuck my way around the world and meet Gentlemen from other destinations… its some strange fantasy that I have had most of my adult life…. But I do, maybe I should become a touring provider at some point….
Ok, and lastly, I want to add this, I know that a lot of you guys have been commenting on how you feel about yourselves because of how I am about the gym and fitness. I really want to elaborate on this one. First, please, I write about my fitness journey to inspire, not to discourage. And I have to include that yes, a perk of working out is looking nice, but I mostly work out for mental wellness, and to have structure and routine in my life. I am a curvaceous, voluptuous woman. I enjoy food, as much as I love working out. I have a juicy body. I’m not that hard body, who only eats X amount of calories a day (maybe at breakfast ha ha or at Starbucks) But I am not here to make you feel worse about yourself, I am here to make you feel better about your day. And I am a firm believer in the body is meant to be celebrated for all that it does for us. So please, don’t be intimidated by what I post, we aren’t here to compare, we are here to celebrate and enjoy one another.
Well, that hopefully covers everything until next time, hopefully I can get one more in before I depart!!
Thank you all so much for reading and enjoying this blog, I love to write and open my heart.
Kisses and licks,
Jenny (yes, I am just going to go back to Jennifer, its just going to be a process lol)
