Its about damn time!!!
11/6/2024
First off, I wanted to say thank you all for your patience as I slowly worked my way back into the industry, And I will start this post off by saying this is going to be a longer one, explaining some things, so I appreciate you all coming by to read this.
Ok, well I have come back to the industry full time as of last month. I left the transportation industry to go back to school, which has not started yet, I have not enrolled, and I will be doing this for a while. How this happened was simply going to the doctors for an appointment and him telling me that I had been progressively getting worse for the eight months prior. And after two weeks of stress leave, I noticed that it was either going to be me or my job... but I could not keep living the way that I was. I had gotten to the point of being so stressed out that I had forgotten how to cook, and I was unable to take care of myself, some days I would forget to eat all together and was suffering from massive headaches weekly. I would say to my boss constantly, "I never had this type of shit when I was making 100% more per hour and having an orgasm to make my money... but here we are." I like to keep humor in my life, and I am grateful that my boss and I did have a good relationship... he cared enough about me to let me leave this time, as he was never willing to let me do that before. I went into his office and told him I was leaving to go back to school.
ugh, I dont like talking about that. It took me months to get over that. I left there in the summer. And I had a hard time accepting that. But when I finally did, I messaged Pauline and asked her if I could come back to work for her at Great Pharoah. I was surpised that she remembered me, I worked for her when I left being "Emma at BBC'. Now, that was at the beginning of when my drug and alcohol use was getting really bad... so it was a big ask. And you know, she and I messaged for a few weeks. She wanted to make sure that I was making the right decision, and that it was not going to affect my recovery. Yes, I am over three years clean and sober now. (we will get to that in another paragraph) I was nervous about working from home, and I was anxious about working around other women, as the women in the transportation industry were DRAMATIC and unprofessional.... but my goodness, it was one of the best decisions that I have made this year. Not only is Pauline an amazing lady, she takes care of us as well. And after being there for a few shifts, it is like I never left the industry at all.... I want to say, the women I am around in that establishment are some of the sweetest, funniest and beautiful souls I have worked with. And working with Pauline again is effin refreshing. She sends me messages every few days telling me how nice it is to be working with me again, and she knew I had this in me... its nice to have someone who has your back. And knowing that she has my back about the drugs and booze, is nice too, I have worked in establishments that will encourage drug use to keep us working for them and take us out partying to keep their personal friends happy... It makes one a little apprehensive, naturally when I was returning. And I do have to say, obviously with this, I do have a lot of respect for her and her facility.... so I respect the rules that she lays down, and one of those being, no GFE as an extra service. Which a lot of you who have already had the pleasure of seeing me know, that is one of my specialities... which I do still provide -- BUT ONLY at my private residence and only at my distrection which I generally only book with clients that I have seen before or have screened when coming to my place. I want to ensure we are both going to have a good time, its all about mutual enjoyment, otherwise, what is the point??? After being back in the parlors for a week, I was in love again, I was like, "why did I even leave?" lol. And I will be there for a while.... doing both, seeing clients at my home and working shifts at Great Pharoah... Just want to confirm that with you so you read it straight from my blog. And, I do have to add, that Pauline made sure before I started back that it was right for my recovery and it was not going to affect my sobriety, and did not rush the answer out of me either... we do not find that many bosses in this industry who would care about that type of thing... And I appreciate her for doing so. It is a huge reason I respect her so much. Having a heart in this industry after being in it the way she has been is not an easy thing to do. I love when the Universe places me in the presence of strong women, and that is exactly what it has done by putting me here again. I love it :)
I wanted to touch base about stuff that I had gotten vulnerable about in my first blog, on juicyjennifer's orignial blog (yes, I am THAT juicyjennifer, and am also the Emma from BBC *back in the days of Broadway Bodycare*), and how we ended up on this one. Well, when I was struggling to get clean and sober before my life changed in 2017, I was writing on my blog about things then, and so many of you praised me for my honesty. I couldnt hide things at that point. But the beautiful thing happened shortly after I was open about it, I got clean and sober... And my life has never been the same since. Infact, being that transparent with you all, about my struggles, the ups and downs of getting sober, and the difficulties of navigating through life after years of addiction and now trying to live honest and happy -- well so many of you connected with me, and so many more of you supported me and would praise me for being brave enough to talk about it, and I dont know if I would have even made it to where I ended up with out that support and encouragement. So I knew that coming back, I needed to bring the blog back. It will take me a little bit to get my niche back, but Im not worried, we all grow together :) and now that all this stuff is covered, I do intend on doing a blog post every two weeks or so.
ok, I think that covers that stuff.
Having said that, I do want to inform you all, that yes, I am still a marathon runner, I have now ran something like 4 or 5 marathons, and 5 or so half marathons. I travel now, and not just for escorting purposes, and the coolest thing, I am also a speaker. I share my story with hundreds of people about how I went from hopeless and helpless to this shining beam of sunlight and positivity. It took me a lot of years to get my life together, and then, one day, when someone told me that I could not be an escort and get sober, it was my life mission to do so simply to show others that it can be done. And I did that in 2017-2019.... and I struggled to keep my sobriety together for years. and finally, the past three years, I have gotten a way better sobriety and an even better understanding of my new life and self. I left the company that was taking pieces of my self resepct and soul. and decided to come back to something that I know and love -- service and servicing respectful gentlemen. That mutual enjoyment is something that I thrive in.
Well, I did have a totally different thing typed out, and forgot to save it haha. But I do want to say, that I am working on getting this to be my own domain and site so that way it prevents those darn pop ups. For now, one thing at a time.
Kisses and licks, Sucks and Fucks,
Emma Starr (formerly Juicy Jennifer)
(ok, this one is just going to have to do lol, because I want to get it published and out there for you all! Thank you so very much for reading and I am looking forward to reconnecting with you and meeting the rest of you that I get the pleasure to meet moving forward!!! <3)
