Post Marathon
5/5/2025
Well, it has been a month!!! And it literally has! I haven’t wrote, or even had the time to since my last post! I appreciate all who follow my blog and keep in contact with me and work with my hectic schedule. I wanted to write work schedule, but its not just work that keeps me busy. Its recovery life and my running/fitness that takes up a majority of my time too… Today, I put it out there that maybe it is best that I just call it and retire… but I really do enjoy entertaining where I don’t want to get rid of this and still be able to do my full life.
Yesterday, I ran in my eighth full marathon, and completed my FIFTH 42.2 km marathon. There was so many moments where the course officials were trying to get me to stop racing and told me. “we are pulling you from the race” .. I didn’t listen, I told them, “that is fine, I will be an informed pedestrian.” And I continued on. There was an older gentleman who was struggling a bit, and I stayed and walked with him, but out of the 42.2kms, I ran about 36kms of it… and I finished, not only with the part of my heart that loves helping others, but also with the determination that I wasn’t going to give up simply because others told me that it was in THEIR best interests for me to do so. If you have had the pleasure of hearing a little bit about me, you know that I don’t give up on something that I have my heart and soul into. And all I could think about while I was running and it felt like my body was slowly shutting down, was that, “I have been through, and survived much worse than anything I am going to encounter today.” And I kept going. When I crossed that finish line yesterday, it took me SEVEN hours and fifteen minutes…. To date, this was the longest marathon I have ever participated in… and the best I have ever trained for in the past eight years of me running. I find that a bit odd, but I wouldn’t have it any other way. The former me, the one who was addicted to drugs, booze and self-destruction would have given up the moment someone gave me a way out… Before, I didn’t need an excuse to give up or quit, but that was a good one, “someone told me that I wasn’t able to do it anymore, so I gave up.”
I know there are people who watch and follow what I do and take it as inspiration for their own lives, and I do not take that lightly. We must never give up on those dreams that are placed in our hearts… they were given to us for a reason. I can tell you, that while I was on that course yesterday, I had a moment where the pains of my past popped back up, and for a moment, I was running it for her. The girl who thought she would never amount to anything except a drug addicted, alcoholic escort… the one who thought that abuse meant love, and the one who was a prisoner of her past and didn’t ever see a way out… For a brief moment… until I felt selfish for doing so.. and then I got back to being in the moment and enjoying the fact that I don’t live that way anymore, and simply appreciated the fact that I continued on and felt my heart love the fact that determination was keeping me going, and that I was going to be able to write about it with all of you.
Today, I discovered muscles in my body that I didn’t even know existed. Like ouch!!! But it was worth it. It hurts to laugh, and walk around. All of this was earned and it is a type of satisfaction that I would have never known in my life if I didn’t try. I love the saying, “if you think you can’t, your right, but if you think you can, you might.” There are so many little sayings and quotes that keep me going on the daily.
Well, I am flying from the marathon today, so I do appreciate you all celebrating this victory with me, my next race will just be a 10km, and then I am preparing for the Toronto Waterfront Marathon in October… One of my biggest goals and dreams since I started running is to finish two whole marathons in a single year… so stay tuned and we will see where that takes us.
Also, I will be updating my services to include dinner dates and overnights… but they are also only going to be with returning clients… we need to meet at my private location before I will book these longer type sessions… stay tuned for that.
Thank you all for being a part of my journey, I wouldn’t be where I am in my life without so many of you. Also, I have started writing my book as of last month, and it seems to be a little more challenging (emotional!!) than I thought it would be, but atleast it is started!!! (and no, its not going to be super sexually detailed… I like to keep those types of details private as intimacy should be private and classy!! That’s what discretion is all about!! Rest assured, your secrets are safe with me!! I am excited for it to get out there and to be finished, but I will let you all know when it is done!!! Starting anything is the toughest part!!!)
Kisses,
